See this picture right here? I’m the naïve 16 year old with horribly dyed blonde hair who didn’t know how good she had it in this photo. Beside me is my gorgeous big sister, and best friend, Brenda.
I call myself naïve, because in just two short years after this picture, I changed. A lot. But well…so did Brenda. We took this photo at family Christmas and at the time, no one knew Brenda was struggling with bipolar disorder, alcoholism and panic attacks. I didn’t even know until the next July. When I found out, I helped her through it. We were just sisters, best friends doing things to keep her mind away from the mental illness that threatened her daily.
Trying on shoes at target,
being complete dorks at long john silvers,
grabbing breakfast at village inn.
You see, this isn’t just a story I’ve made up. This is my life. But there’s one more picture I want to share with you guys. One more story I have to tell before I make my point.
I took this picture downtown. We were hanging out, celebrating another day, and just having fun. I wanted to pose with the statues because I’m weird like that, and you see, Brenda could never say no to me, so she too posed with the statues. And you know what? I’m glad we did this because this is the last picture I ever took of my sister.
You see, I wish I could tell you this story has a happy ending. Honestly, I’d like to tell that to myself every now and then, but that’s just not the truth.
That precious angel in all those photos? She left me on April 24, 2013. On that day she became just another statistic, a girl who’d lost her fight.
So why am I telling you this awful story? I wanted you guys to know how beautiful life is, how much is lost in death. You may think there’s nothing for you here, but there is. I guarantee that there is someone out there who could make a post just like this about you.
So live it up. Go to target and try on high heels that you couldn’t possibly walk in. Go to long john silvers and wear weird pirate hats as you eat your food. Get breakfast at village inn with someone you love. Pose with the statues. Have fun. Don’t get so caught up in drama and stupidity because those things aren’t worth it. But most of all, fight. Fight for everything life has to offer. Fight for your little sister, your mom, your best friend, your neighbor, who couldn’t bear to see you go. And fight for yourself. You deserve a long life filled with everything the world has to offer.